"Computer start recording." The mezzo-soprano voice says quietly, this personal log appears to be be audio only. Ael'Ihhuein finally begins to speak again, "Personal log, stardate 83638.19." She takes another breath and continues on to say, "It has become uncomfortably obvious that I must reevaluate my career ambitions." Her lips curl into a bit of a frown as a sigh escapes her throat, "A year ago, the path was so very clear and I had exact plans to achieve the ambitions I once had. There are now blocks in my path and I grow dissatisfied with the lack of focus I have with my career."
"Perhaps this is the sacrifice that must be made. My career progressed as I kept a hold on my other ambitions… Perhaps this is the will of the Elements, a way of telling me that I am not allowed complete satisfaction away from my kind. I simply need something to focus on, else I see little need to continue on this career path." Illy shrugs to herself and lets out another deep sigh from her chest taking a moment to pause before continuing with her thought process.
"My greatest flaw is my absolute lack of patience, yet this past year of my career has been nothing but endless waiting. I do not even have a clear direction and I have nearly run out of idle tasks to give myself as a distraction. I could pick up more work in the Shoppe, but my mind has been preoccupied with other designs that are more personal than for profit.
I need something to focus on for my career, this lack of direction and uncertainty is a point of great agitation. I would be a great deal more patient and content if I had not already voiced these issues with Admiral Starr. I wish I knew where to go from here or what I wanted. As much as it pains me to say so, I must remain patient a bit longer. I can only pray that the Elements find some compassion and guide me towards my next ambitions."
